its chinese new year again. funny how things can change in a year. who you are, what you have, where your heart lies, how you feel, funny how they change so fast. oh the weather too. last year cny was a hot and humid event, and this year its windy and chill, just how i like it to be. in fact i wish it'd be like this every single day.
okay instead of the usual philosophical, arty, cool, indie, you name it blogging style that i've been adopting on puieh's(it means the fat one) blog, i shall try to post a typical blog post of my day's events.
today i woke up late due to sleeping really late last night, to shou sui and let my parents and grandpa enjoy a long life ^^ and i didnt get to participate in the activities that happened in the afternoon upstairs. yep upstairs. every year i celebrate chinese new year upstairs in my grandpa's apartment, as we live in some coolio kinda mansion that i cant be bothered to explain right here unless you're a cg and you're interested you can ask me anytime.
so i went up in the evening and greeted some relatives and received some angbaos. i dont really sound excited like YAY I RECEIVED ANGBAOS because im not really a cny person. as in i like baguas and stuff but i dont really find cny fun or exciting or anything. but im chinese. anyway, i spent alot of time talking to my grandpa. but i dont just talk to him on cny, sometimes when im not out and he's sitting downstairs in his little garden i'd go downstairs and talk to him. and he'd tell me lots of stuff and how important studying is and how i should study hard and how i would help him in his business in the future. i wasnt so close to him in the past but now i feel myself growing more and more attached to him by the day, and i can just sit down and talk to him. and then i realize im starting to love him. sometimes when people say stuff like I LOVE MY MUM or I LOVE MY GRANDMA or I LOVE MACARONS they dont really mean it or are just saying it for the sake of saying it, but i really mean it and i seldom feel attached to my elders except my parents. and i know he loves me too as he seems to prefer grandsons to granddaughters and im the (smartest) grandson in the family. and then i decided that my girlfriends from now on definitely have to like my grandpa. not that id dump them if they dont, but i'd try my best to make them like him, and i think they would, because he is really a nice, lovable guy and i love him. and she and i can both sit down with my grandpa in his little garden downstairs and enjoy each other's company instead of the usual stuff like hanging out in town. is that too demanding of me?
wow, what a long post. i just asked yankai what he would do whenever he feels sad, and he told me that he would blog. and so thats why im trying it, blogging right now. and blogging really does help get your mind off certain stuff that you dont want to think about. at least for now. of course you cant do without nice music like Stars and Yeah Yeah Yeahs. and of course im not gonna tell you fuckers why im sad here. this is blogger for christs sake. like blog-thewholeworldcansee-ger. but yeah. i feel sad. im surprised how much it still gets to me now. after so long. i wasnt like this. i was better than this. i really need to move on. yeah i have to.
oh, and i found out that i have royal blood in me cause according to me grandpa the chinese emperor zhu yuan zhang is our ancestor. YEAH BOW DOWN TO ME PEASANTS.
Stars - Your Ex-Lover is Dead
It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't chose
I'll write you a postcard, I'll send you the news
From a house down the road, from real love
Live through this and you won't look back
Live through this and you won't look back
Live through this and you won't look back
There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted, I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you, I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save
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