Today, I made a wrong decision and screwed up big time.

I was damn irresponsible and I think my friends all lost their trust in me.

I don't think there's anyway to redeem myself.

Felt so bad the whole day.

Still feeling very bad.

Sorry.

i think i have to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for acknowledging my capabilities by giving so many problems and tasks for me to solve tackle and complete.

Traffic Jam

Was stuck in a jam for 1.5hours from Bukit Timah all the way to Sembawang. Damn bad. The sad thing is that there is no way I could get from NJ to Semb for tuition. Bus to anywhere will take a long time too and well, who can get onto the train during peak hours. So owning a car in SG doesn;t give you an advantage unless you have weird working hours.

Oh, went back NJ for Floorball training. It was, quite bad. The juniors don't really appreciate the fact that they can use the hall already and not squeeze in that hot stuffy gym or even worse, the hockey D. Movement was slow, learning spirit wasn't there and so Bryan and I couldn't help much. Sigh.

我好想你

I hope I will not be able to understand and feel this song, ever.

I feel kind of betrayed. Like you know, everything was meant as a joke and it is not cool how you reacted. Doesn't justify how I got scolded for you making mistakes. Doesn't justify how someone looks at me now just because of your childish actions. I might be taking this too seriously, but well, I am really disappointed.

Road to Financial Freedom - Day 1

Just attended T3B course over the weekends. I must say that it was really mind-provoking and inspiring. Singapore is really a very expensive city to live in and this will only get worse. Was enlightened by Eliezer that the root cause of foreign talents and workers coming to SG, taking over and dominating industries is us, Singaporeans. It is us who aren't willing to take up the odd hours, odd jobs and in place, someone has to take over these positions. It is us who aren't good enough to be in the positions in companies and so who are we to complain as all these reasons contribute to this downward spiral that this generation of youths will be sucked deeper and deeper in.

I don't think living off a monthly pay will be enough in the future. Got to start working hard now, and make the money grow hard as well. 20% per year is the minimum. Period.

Just did some calculation, I should be able to pay off school loans and stuff before I step into the workforce if everything goes well. God bless me.

Received this hate mail: 

From: Pha an
Sent: Thursday, 9 May, 2013 11:54 AM
To: junxiang
Subject: Re: Singapore tuition assignments updated Wednesday 8th May 2013

Dear Jun Xiang

I am getting really annoyed at how inefficient and irresponsible you are. I have already requested - more than once - to stop receiving these emails and for this email to be removed from your database. Please do so asap.

Regards

GOT DAMN PISSED AND OWNED THE PERSON BACK. THANKS FOR THE APOLOGY. 

From: Pha an 

It looks like Ken is the one who have not deleted my account. I sincerely apologise for my tone used. 

On Thu, May 9, 2013 at 12:42 PM, Pha an wrote:

I also sent these 2 emails in reply to the emails from your agency.

Pha an	Apr 25
to info

Hi. Please unsubscribe me.

Pha an	Apr 30 (9 days ago)
to info

hi can u pls delete this email from yr database? thnks

On Thu, May 9, 2013 at 12:34 PM, Jun Xiang@ YESTUITION AGENCY wrote:

For your info,

From: Jun Xiang@ YESTUITION AGENCY
Sent: Thursday, 25 April, 2013 10:30 AM
To: 'Ken@ YES Tuition Agency'
Subject: 31452 wants to be deleted, thanks.

This was done immediately following your request.

Please provide prove that you have requested more than once. Please don’t tell me that the following is you telling me MORE THAN ONCE. I asked that question because you have applied for assignments before and I thought you might still want to take up assignments in the future.

___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

From: Pha an
Sent: Thursday, 25 April, 2013 10:24 AM
To: junxiang
Subject: RE: Singapore tuition assignments updated Wednesday 24th April 2013

If that's possible too?

On Apr 25, 2013 10:23 AM, "Jun Xiang@ YESTUITION AGENCY"  wrote:

Do you need me to delete your profile off my database?

Jun Xiang

From: Pha an
Sent: Wednesday, 24 April, 2013 6:08 PM
To: junxiang
Subject: Re: Singapore tuition assignments updated Wednesday 24th April 2013

 Hi can I unsubscribe from this? Thanks.

On Apr 24, 2013 5:57 PM,  wrote:

___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

From: Phan
Sent: Friday, 29 March, 2013 12:13 AM
To: junxiang
Subject: Re: Singapore tuition assignments updated Thursday 28th March 2013

Dear Jun Xiang,

CODE: 46918
Name: Phan
Qualifications: O-level (A1 for English), A-level
Current Occupation: Waiting to enter NUS Faculty of Arts and Social SciencesTuition Experience: 1 year
Details of tuition experiences:

Fees: 35/hr as mentioned

Free Slot: Tues 5pm 

Thank you :)

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omg, all time low. told myself not to, but still did. followed blindly, got killed badly. again.

Hi world.

7 months since I wrote here. Woah.

Life is damn stressful now, can't wait to quit and enjoy life for a couple of months before uni starts. But then again, have to work hard now to earn the school fees and enjoy later.

Meeting my army bros later at Sam's bday party. Miss them damn a lot. Sounds gay but yea, everyone also feels the same way. Totally miss those carefree time, wake up eat, come back sleep, wake up go run, come back shower sleep, wake up go eat lunch. Yea you get my point. Haha.

Floorball training last night made me realise something. I have been training so hard to increase my strength and size and hat not but I'm not using it to my advantage at all during game play. Really should start to put my body into play and edge people out, control the ball etcetc. It's pretty demoralising nowadays because when anyone talks about not being able to control ball properly, lousy control, stick-handling, etcetc, everyone will think of me first. That sucks:/

Okay bye world. Back to work.

RIP

it's saddening how frail he looks.
it's saddening that he cant verbalise anything right now. i can tell that he has a million things to say.
it's saddening that he don't dare to go to sleep, forcing himself to wake up everytime he closes his eyes.
it's saddening how sad everyone is right now.

ah fuck.

if you even care,

in the lift,

me: hello!
neighbour's maid: hi! where you going?
me: safra.
neighbour's maid: to exercise?
me: yup!
neighbour's maid: woah you everyday exercise ah.

thanks for noticing, it made my day:)

commitment to fitness.

way to go.

what's wrong with the world?

and we're counting down to the days left, saddening, really.

curls for the gals

my goal one year ago was to train hard for my sport. to play better, to play harder.

after one year of hitting the gym, i am still having that goal in mind.

not many people can plank perfect form for more than 3mins straight, normal ppl will not be able to deadlift 171% of ur bodyweight, not everyone can juggle cardio running and lifting at the same time. i think.

there are definitely changes and improvements, but getting bigger is just a, by-product i will say.

all the misconceptions, all the haters, laughing-stock.

oh do whatever the fuck you want

hey world.

just had two busy weeks, ndp and stuff. clearing my leave now, today till next mon, life is good.

well, not really.

coz my face is peeling, from standing under the sun for 7 hours.

oh, and the family feud. at it's very best. fuck that shit.

why the sudden interest in blogging back here again? i ask myself.

because i find twitter getting more and more lame.

okay gtg, market opening now.

are you watching closely?

Alfred: Everything's going to be alright, because I love you very much.
Sarah: Say it again.
Alfred: I love you.
Sarah: Not today.
Alfred: What do you mean?
Sarah: Well some days it's not true. Maybe today you're more in love with magic. I like being able to tell the difference, it makes the days it is true mean something.

one of the best movies i've seen.

making a top ten list of my own now. which includes shawshank redemption, LOTR trilogy, batman trilogy, the prestige. i need two more. recommendations?

dark knight

i feel extremely sad whenever i listen to 徐佳瑩's songs.

or are there other factors?

still can't get over the passing away of my evo3. i'm gonna try bestowing a new life upon it.

wish me luck folks.

no pecs, no sex

oh did i mention that training yesterday was fun? coach commented about my 'bromance' with bryan coz during game we knew what each other wanted to do and stuff and did a couple of good plays. naise.

my shin hurts. why everytime kena slashed on the shin one? damn son.

bye world, time for some community and sleep.